Being around people helps. I still feel like I have a gaping wound in my chest, though. And I feel a huge need to reach out, but reaching out isn't what's called for right now. Very difficult to convince myself that that's true. Fuckle.
I'm still having trouble convincing myself that me previous bf and I have irreconcileable (sp?) diffs. Every time I contact him, I am hurt or disappointed, yet, I keep wanting to do it. I have learned not to give in to the urges, for the most part.