Queue (queue) wrote,


I've spent a lot more time looking at myself and how I react to things in the past couple of years than I've ever done before. So I notice patterns of behavior. What's really neat is to notice bad patterns and be able to change them. It's hard, though, when the bad patterns are familiar and comfortable. They're patterns because that's what feels like the natural way for me to react. So, going against my natural reactions, even though I know it's better, is very difficult.

Over the weekend, I was thinking about doing some writing, possibly something autobiographical (or semi-autobiographical?), about patterns, about someone chronicling times in his life where a certain pattern has surfaced and how his awareness of this pattern developed and how he changes how he reacts to this pattern.

As with most neat things I think about, I probably won't actually do this one. However, this does have something going for it: the fact that I'm really personally interested in the subject and in processing the subject for myself. We'll see what happens.

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